My life has been a miserable struggle. I have never had a job, never had a social life, and never found love (though I nearly did once). I have a keen mind, frustratingly held back by a learning disability. With a determined character and kind heart, I had so much to offer, a good chance to succeed, but my youth and future were destroyed by other people and the injustice of society. Life is wonderful, but can be incredibly cruel. There are fates far worse than death.
What I do still have, and will defend to the last, is my unconditional love for God.
If my loss is his gain, I lose everything willingly, as I trust in him completely - though I still struggle with fear, doubt, grief, and pain - human nature.
Though my life and suffering seem pointless, I pray it serves a purpose, and will come to pass.
Through Jesus, I have hope.
I make mods because it is one of the few things I can still do when everything else seems impossible, and in the hope it at least brings a little happiness to others.
Photo of me (google drive, so it takes 15+sec to load for some reason):
My Youtube channel, and here is a link to 15hours of high quality soundtracks I have curated and edited (all volume normalised by hand)
My List of 1300+ IMDb ratings (the average person watches well over 5000 things in their life, so don't look at me like that!)
My Steam profile.
Here's a grocery shopping list I made that you can tweak and print off (very paper efficient design - 24 uses per A4 paper)
Some stuff I felt like writing:
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Love has the power to overcome everything. Love has the power to heal wounds that nothing else would heal. Love brings hope where there was none. Love gives you strength you did not know you had. When both share in Christ, true Love is the ultimate gift God can give in this life.
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God,
I do not like this,
I do not choose this,
I do not understand this,
I do not agree with this,
But I will try to accept this, if it is your will.
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God,
guide me out of this if this is not where I should be,
or guide me through this if this is where you need me to be.
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