I wanted to explain my radio silence for the last year. Only a few people know what's really going on behind the scenes and just wanted to be a little more open.
As if right now all my content (to my knowledge) doesn't work for simulator update. I would love to fix that but my home life is completely maxing out my brain and I don't have any extra brain power to give to anything else sadly. Honestly I want to keep creating more content.
Right now I'm being forced to take care of my elderly adopted father. which is really hard because he used to abuse me growing up. I live in a state where it's the Childs responsibility to do this. Doesn't matter how the parent treated the child growing up. Doing this is causing me to relive a lot of my past in the forum of PTSD flashbacks. Which is taking a total mental load on my brain dealing with them. My dad doesn't have anywhere near the strength to abuse me the way he used to but he still tries and tries to find new ways to mentally abuse me. (by doing things like shitting on the floor in order to watch me clean it up) If I was to put him into an assistant living facility I would end up being homeless. I have already blown through all of my savings trying to fix everything in my house that my dad broke or let go into disrepair while I was gone. (I basically ran away after my mom died)
The plus side my dad has water on the brain from his years of alcoholism and the doctor has given him less than 5 years to live because my dad doesn't want to treat it. (if he treated it he would get 12 years with a slow mental decline instead of 5 with a fast mental decline)
This is something I'm dealing with totally by my self. I don't even have any friends left to assist me. (they all died or aren't around anymore for various reasons) My dad's biological children have disowned him and aren't helping. My dad also convinced them to hate me by telling them a lot of lies. But I was able to fix that especially since with the water on the brain is causing him to get confused easily so he doesn't have the mental power to keep lies going anymore and is always contradicting himself when he is trying to lie because he can't keep track of the different lies he made up.
I could write a novel with everything that has happened in the last year. I'm leaving out a ton of details like when I tried to get assistance through the department of aging. (which everyone kept suggesting I do) I almost was arrested for elder abuse because I needed that assistance and wasn't able to care for my dad on my own. There is also someone who conned my dad out of $30,000 and stole countless items from my house who keeps coming around to try and steal more stuff from my house. There is currently an active investigation by the police against her. Like I said I could write a novel.
I really hope things calm down soon so I can start doing things I enjoy again like making content for Derail valley. I tried to update some of my content the other day and I ended up just getting super overwhelmed and gave up. Things are currently calmed down a little bit but I'm just waiting for the next pile of crap to blow up in my face right now hoping it never does. What I'm going through would overwhelm anyone. But I also have high functioning autism. So that makes a lot of what's going on even harder for me to process. I've tried to get help from every outlet I could think of from lawyers to not for profit agency's around and no one seems to be able to help. So I'm just stuck until everything sorts it's self out.
I'm still learning the process of adding content to this game so I decided to keep as much "default" as possible to lessen the chance of adding issues. The bumpers post are a totally separate mesh which I have been adding to every car in unity. I made it so it can be easily deleted any time for this reason.
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I wanted to explain my radio silence for the last year. Only a few people know what's really going on behind the scenes and just wanted to be a little more open.
As if right now all my content (to my knowledge) doesn't work for simulator update. I would love to fix that but my home life is completely maxing out my brain and I don't have any extra brain power to give to anything else sadly. Honestly I want to keep creating more content.
Right now I'm being forced to take care of my elderly adopted father. which is really hard because he used to abuse me growing up. I live in a state where it's the Childs responsibility to do this. Doesn't matter how the parent treated the child growing up. Doing this is causing me to relive a lot of my past in the forum of PTSD flashbacks. Which is taking a total mental load on my brain dealing with them. My dad doesn't have anywhere near the strength to abuse me the way he used to but he still tries and tries to find new ways to mentally abuse me. (by doing things like shitting on the floor in order to watch me clean it up) If I was to put him into an assistant living facility I would end up being homeless. I have already blown through all of my savings trying to fix everything in my house that my dad broke or let go into disrepair while I was gone. (I basically ran away after my mom died)
The plus side my dad has water on the brain from his years of alcoholism and the doctor has given him less than 5 years to live because my dad doesn't want to treat it. (if he treated it he would get 12 years with a slow mental decline instead of 5 with a fast mental decline)
This is something I'm dealing with totally by my self. I don't even have any friends left to assist me. (they all died or aren't around anymore for various reasons) My dad's biological children have disowned him and aren't helping. My dad also convinced them to hate me by telling them a lot of lies. But I was able to fix that especially since with the water on the brain is causing him to get confused easily so he doesn't have the mental power to keep lies going anymore and is always contradicting himself when he is trying to lie because he can't keep track of the different lies he made up.
I could write a novel with everything that has happened in the last year. I'm leaving out a ton of details like when I tried to get assistance through the department of aging. (which everyone kept suggesting I do) I almost was arrested for elder abuse because I needed that assistance and wasn't able to care for my dad on my own. There is also someone who conned my dad out of $30,000 and stole countless items from my house who keeps coming around to try and steal more stuff from my house. There is currently an active investigation by the police against her. Like I said I could write a novel.
I really hope things calm down soon so I can start doing things I enjoy again like making content for Derail valley. I tried to update some of my content the other day and I ended up just getting super overwhelmed and gave up. Things are currently calmed down a little bit but I'm just waiting for the next pile of crap to blow up in my face right now hoping it never does. What I'm going through would overwhelm anyone. But I also have high functioning autism. So that makes a lot of what's going on even harder for me to process. I've tried to get help from every outlet I could think of from lawyers to not for profit agency's around and no one seems to be able to help. So I'm just stuck until everything sorts it's self out.
I'm still learning the process of adding content to this game so I decided to keep as much "default" as possible to lessen the chance of adding issues. The bumpers post are a totally separate mesh which I have been adding to every car in unity. I made it so it can be easily deleted any time for this reason.